Excerpt
CHAPTER 1
It used to be that people lived for just the right amount of time. Just enough time for a rebellious youth; just enough time for a midlife crisis; just enough time to fade into oblivion with your regrets.
Eighty years, give or take a decade. That was the time allotted to us. And it was nothing. Think about it. The sun takes two hundred and thirty million years to complete its orbit around the Milky Way. And that, as far as our universe goes, is a fairly pedestrian act. Just a ball of gas going there and back again. Bookies on the Pillar of Heaven take thirty-to-one odds as to whether we as a species will last that long. Sucker's bet.
Most people were halfway through their lives before they even figured out who they were. And then it was a race to the bottom.
The upside is that this shortness of breath always inspired a tremendous search for meaning. Especially as people got older. What is this life for? we asked. We were all born to die. Surely the universe didn't make us just to throw us into a few brief decades of drudgery before we ended up being shot into a star or liquified into plant-food. Surely we weren't just meat-puppets thrusting our hips into the void. We think, we breathe, we argue, we introspect; surely this had to mean something. Prophets, wise-men, cave-dwelling monks; paintings, poems, performance art; hieroglyphs, steles, blogposts, distributed censuses, meltdowns on livestreams. So much energy, so much time, so much talent spent on this question.
Take all those philosophers. Remove all their flesh. Put their minds into metal tubs that can stand the thousand cruelties of space. Make it so that they can live a hundred, two hundred, even a thousand years, if they so choose, and if they maintain themselves. Take away the very concept of a lifespan and replace it with the choice to keep on going. Show them the true scale of the universe.
The question vanishes. All that's left is certainty. We clock in, we clock out, and the universe does not care. We are a crawling mass of nothing. In the grand scheme of things, we're just an errant configuration of matter. Objects that make more objects; a universe trying out new shapes just for the heck of it. Everything we are will one day be dust. And the only things that make this road worth walking are the people who walk with you. There's a reason so much of life advice is about finding good friends and partners. An hour of banter; a day of mutual frustration; laughter over a week of bad meals; the relief of a tough job well done after months; the slow suicide of the years, made slightly less sad because we exist together, we share it with each other. Small bloody payment for all this hassle, but it's the only thing we really get. Everything in between is us trying to stay busy.
My chosen form of busyness? War.